once more...

B: "A circle is the only geometric shape defined by its centre. No chicken and egg bout it, the centre came first, the circumference follows. The earth, by definition has a centre. And only the fool that knows it can go wherever he pleases, knowing the centre will hold him down, stop him flying out of orbit. But when your sense of centre shifts, comes whizzing to the surface, the balance has gone. The balance has gone. The balance my baby has gone"This was the first ( and the only thing that I most related to) thing that made a lot of sense to me when I read Sarah Kane's crave. I was "c" in the play and even though she has a lot of things to say it is this that hits me the most....(first impression?)Somebody suddenly mentioned the importance of such a centre in life without which, according to them we just might be floating around......Floating around looking for it perhaps.Well this concept of THE CENTRE or perhaps a lack of one in my life is what fueled the Blog project. Suddenly I no longer think of blogs as a vain thing people do, or a desperate plea to make oneself interesting or a sign of inadequacy of meeting real people......and caressing pretention in some vague way.......I do not yet know how I perceive it but somehow I have a feeling this is going to do a world of good to my confused state of mind, (with the risk of sounding corny) and heart.Well now it seems that there are a good number of centers, with varying gravitational pulls as if they are competing for attention....the ones that are well established are I think afraid of becoming obsolete and waiting for a chance to grow and evolve ( My mom, My French and theatre for example) the others, floating, seem to have minds of their own, morphing and mutating, incomprehensibly sometimes that they become scary and risk becoming obsessions or deceptive illusions of something else.......( TV, people...Books? Etc ----to stay away from scandalous examples.)Even though a blissful obliteration of the present state of circumstances is very desirable, the effort and process to get to its roots are a tad bit more tempting.Again, at the risk of sounding corny, perhaps the grand questions on life, death and purpose should be asked...... just to repair my centers and also hopefully add a new, significant one.